List of Injuries and Ailments-two hurting/cracking knees (I've had to start hiking in knee braces recently)
-two throbbing feet (the balls of my feet and toes are completely numb on both feet)
-one missing toenail and one brown one that will soon be missing
-low blood pressure (everytime I stand up from a bending over position I get dizzy)
-enough bug bites to get me quarantined for smallpox
-a developing cavity that hurts like hell
-an irradic emotional state
It's been humid and in the mid 90s for the past week...even in the mountains. I have officially quit the trail everyday of the week, only to change my mind in the morning. It's been tough lately. I was prepared for this to be hard and almost everyday up until now has been...but this is beyond anything I ever imagined. Between my knees, feet, the heat, the difficult terrain, and my Virginia blues, my determination is hanging by a thread. I'm not making any rash decisions though. I'm making myself go another 150 miles...to Wayensboro. Between now and then, I am going to evaluate my physical state and quality of life on the trail (measured by quantity of emotional breakdowns in one day) and make a decision. I wanted this more than anything but not if I'm going to be miserable for the next 3 months. This was supposed to be my big adventure...full of hard times and good ones too. So far, I've had a lot of both, but lately it's only been hard. I don't want to finish this and think "Yeah, I hiked the whole AT, but it was the most miserable experience of my life." I've got a lot of time to think about it though. My body will tell me what I need to do.
2 comments:
Sounds like you're having a ball out there... lol. We've pretty much talked all about this stuff already, and I gave you my spiel... "do what ya gotta do, make your own decision"... "don't let anyone sway you either way, no matter what decision you do make, everyone will be proud of ya".
Everyone loves ya... and they just want you to be safe and happy.
Talk soon,
Dani
Hey Nicister, I am sure you have done this about 80x already, but where is your list? The list of things that you have to go through before you decide to come home? You have never wanted anything more than this, and I know it sucks beyond anything that I could possibly imagine, but you must go on! Try to channel all the the positive and remember why you wanted this at all! I love you and I am proud of you for making it this far!
Megister
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